Anatomy of this Outfit: Cardigan – Too Fast | Top – Forever21 | Skirt – Forever21 | Tights – H&M | Heels – Aldo

I am currently sitting on the sofa in sunglasses. As I am not Corey Hart, and never will be (partly because I’m not a white dude but mainly because no one can lip-synch more enthusiastically as that brilliant man), you might just be asking yourself why. Well folks, I have undergone eye surgery. That’s right – last Tuesday and Wednesday, I underwent a procedure similar to Lasik, called ReLEx smile, which basically just means my eyes were too shitty even for Lasik so I had to have artificial lenses placed into my eye. Which means I am sporting some amber-colored sunglasses kindly given to me by the eye clinic in order to cut down on harsh light. No, they are not at all cool and yes, I#ve just realized that that little UV sticker is still stuck to the left lens) The first few days were just spent hopped up on Diazepam and sleeping. Today is the first full day where I am seeing with both eyes, and let me tell you, it’s weird. Like really weird. I mean we are talking about a girl who has worn some sort of corrective lens (contacts and glasses) since the age of 10.

I keep waking up worried that I accidentally slept with my contacts in, or thinking that I need to take my contacts out and put my glasses on, only to realize seconds later that I don’t need either anymore, thinking “most people actually live like this?!”. I’m sure in a week it will be old hat and I’ll be really happy about it – which I am! – but it’s just still so surreal. I’m going through a strict regimen of eyedrops, trying very hard not to touch my eyes and let them heal properly. But of course, seeing that my name is Rae Tashman, and I am basically sort of a failure at this thing called life (In German, this is commonly referred to as “tollpatschig” – in English – “I’m a fucking klutz”) coupled with the fact that the free world is apparently conspiring against me, I sort of some how managed to even fuck up the simple task of avoiding my eye area and putting drops in my eyes. Yeah, you heard me.

You know those security seals on medications that let you know your drugs haven’t been tampered with? Well the eyedrops manufacturers of my eyedrops so graciously placed these around these containers in order to let me know that no psychotic serial killer with a penchant for passive murder via medication tampering fuckery had fucked with said eyedrops. So, like any normal human being about to use said eyedrops, I broke the seal and eyedropped away. Well careless, clumsy, stupid me didn’t think to remove the now broken ring, because, you know, who thinks about these things?! (Honestly, I’m actually asking you guys , because I want to know these things). Well 3 days of seamless eye-droppery had taken place, until I leant my head back per usual, eyedrops in hand, in preparation, when low and behold that stupid fucking plastic ring decided to just slip off from around the bottle and hit me in the eye. Awesome, right? Luckily, I am pretty sure I have not done any major damage to the healing process as is evidenced by the fact that I can still see and am only experiencing a little discomfort and no major pain. Still, all I can think is, SERIOUSLY?!

Honestly, it’s not that HUGE of a deal, but is just another indicator of just how clumsy I truly am. Too bad they don’t give awards out for this kind of stuff because, I would definitely be taking home first place. I mean, I consistently turn short which results in running into door frames, hit my knees and elbows on all sorts of surfaces, have tripped while walking on FLAT CARPET before, tripped UP the stairs (which resulted in a busted iPhone), cut open my finger while trying to remove the pit of an avocado (which subsequently required three stitches and took a good few months to fully heal – and I STILL cannot bend my right pointer finger completely), water continuously spills out onto all the contents inside my bags and backpacks because apparently at 27 I still haven’t properly learned how to securely close the top of a plastic bottle despite this happening for YEARS, every other time I place my bag on a chair or table it magically tips over and all the contents tumble out onto the floor, when I try to put things into plastic bags I magically miss the FREAKING bag and whatever is supposed to go inside the bag ends up on the floor, oh, and when I was younger I could not get through one meal at a restaurant without tipping over a glass of water, and by tipping over a glass I mean knocking over a full glass of water and all of it’s contents all over myself and the table every. damned. time. The list goes on. But hey, at least I’m consistent, right?

Which has actually gotten me pretty curious about the origin of clumsiness and just exactly why some people have it and others don’t. And so I decided to try to solve one of life’s little mysteries (in other words, I typed “why are some people so fucking clumsy” into google) and began my search. Wikipedia has informed me that research on accident-proneness began in 1919, when a study by Greenwood and Woods revealed that accidents were unevenly distributed among workers. Further study took place in the 30 and 40s and the subject is still being studied presently, as this is clearly an important subject in safety engineering where human error can have a much larger impact then just stubbing your toe on the same corner of the same table that has been in the same spot in the same living room for the past 20 years.

Although statistical data has proved that different individuals can have a different frequency of accidents, there have also been studies that have placed doubt on whether being clumsy can actually be classified as a “distinct, persistent and independently verifiable physiological or psychological syndrome.” But if we ARE to assume that this is a real thing, the exact cause is unfortunately unknown. However, some factors that seem to be associated with accident-proneness are as following: carelessness, impulsivity, absent-mindedness, predisposition to risk-taking, and an unconscious desire to actually create accidents for some sort of gain.

Still, this doesn’t explain how along with all of these possible causes unlucky shit just seems to happen to certain people at a higher frequency. Am I absentminded? Sure! But all of the time? No. I am about 99% sure that in my personal case, clumsiness comes down to not paying enough attention just as much as it comes down to pure bad luck. Looks like I should probably be looking to the internets to see what kind of research has been done concerning sheer bad luck next. And since I am out of commission for the weekend while waiting for my eyes to heal, guess I know what I’ll be doing next! (In case that wasn’t explicit enough: I will be reading about bad luck and superstition on wikipedia in between watching episodes of “New Girl” and listening to Corey Hart on repeat.)

Photography: Johannes Husen

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  • Girl I feel you I’m clumsy it feels like half my body doesn’t even belong to me sometimes haha. Hope the healing goes ok!

  • Naomi

    You’re so so beautiful! I love this outfit a lot. And you’re not the only clumsy one, I’m known for walking into walls and it’s not that I don’t see the wall, it’s just clumsiness haha! xo Naomi in Wonderland

  • megan

    Your hair is beyond amazing! ~megan

  • Love the skirt and your hair too!

  • I wear night contacts, but when I get a little older I want to get laser eye surgery like my mom did! I’ve never worn glasses before because my mom would never let me. Anyways, loving your skirt :) -Audrey | Brunch at Audrey’s

  • “because apparently at 27 I still haven’t properly learned how to securely close the top of a plastic bottle despite this happening for YEARS” – Hi yes, my name is Erin and I too cannot close water bottles securely, it’s delightful to meet you.

    Eye surgery! I really want it, but also I’m absolutely petrified and cannot afford it. I can’t wear contacts anymore due to dry eyes and a nasty accident. I have so many questions about the eye business! Especially as you’ve had lenses put in! I cannot imagine the joy of waking up and not having to worry about contacts or glasses.

  • LOVE the outfit! You’re so gorgeous!

  • Mindy

    OMG, this is such a huge deal! I’ve been blind as a bat since elementary school. I’ve been weighing the pros and cons of corrective eye surgery for years! What was your prescription pre surgery? I’m still not brave enough to go for it yet. You’re so funny! If it makes you feel any better I too, trip over flat surfaces out of no where when I’m walking and somehow I kick my ankle sometimes when I walk. I know… wtf right? LOL

    Wishing you a speedy recovery. Oh and that skirt is GORGE btw! Love it!

    Mindy | Blonde Nouveau

  • This post had me laughing so much! I’m so sorry you dropped the plastic ring in your eye, though! I bet it would be SO weird to not need any sort of corrective lens after so long having them! I would feel odd, too; I’ve had glasses since I was around 11, and I think I might miss my glasses if I no longer needed them. I’ve gotten so used to them!
    I hope you heal up quickly, and no more dropping things into your eyes!
    You look gorgeous, by the way. Your hair is amazing!

  • Love this outfit so much!

    Connie | Sponsored by Coffee | Bloglovin’

  • Bella Pummarola

    I have been wearing glasses and lenses since I was 10 too and I can’t imagine how amazing it would be to see without them! Good for you, girl ;) This is such a cute look!

    Bella Pummarola

  • glad everything went well with the surgery, fresh eyes yay :) and hahaha that stupid plastic ring! happened to me before too, dammit

  • Color U Bold

    First of all I must say I love this whole look! I absolutely enjoyed reading your post haha dont worry you are not the only one always clumsy…I am too!!! I’ve been wearing glasses for a long time too never thought about laser surgery but seeing as I’m not good at following directions or taking my time I’ll just stick with my glasses lol! I’m glad you didn’t have any damage and hope you continue to heal well! Btw I just love your hair so pretty!

    Jasmine :)
    Color U Bold

  • Michèle

    oh dear, I’m so freaking in love with that shorts you’re wearing and also your hair, your make up, your attitude, your photos…

  • Adorable mix of prints Rae! You look amazing!



  • Amazing outfit and photos. This skirt looks so great.

  • Emma Loves Fashion

    In love with your coat!

  • Really entertaining post :) The bit with the eyedrops did make me giggle! I remember being able to see for the first time without glasses after I had laser surgery and it just felt so odd but amazingly freeing as well! x

    Brenda BusyBee

  • libys11

    love the punk but sweet look to this outfit!! :D you’re so pretty!

    have a great week!

    Animated Confessions

  • I love your skirt! You always look amazing!
    Melanie @

  • Oh my! Get well soon, dear! Love your grungy look, especially that leo coat! Thanks a lot for your comment on my blog, beauty!!!


  • What a fab jacket! Also diggin’ this post in general, definitely an interesting question!
    Hope you heal soon!

  • Amazing outfit, and I love your hair.

    Jenn |

  • Nancy Wilde

    I am the clumsiest person – I drop everything, I stumble and trample, I bruise my knees all the time… and I once nearly went blind because I accidentally dropped poppers in my eyes…!!! I hate when people don’t take clumsiness seriously, like “If you practice it more often, if you focus, there will be no room for clumsiness”. Riiight… Btw, you look gorgeous, girl! xx

  • Oh I hear you girl. I do the exact same thing, total clutz I am. I’ve never thought about it being a possible genetic trait or something woven in DNA. But when you think about it, it does make sense, how some people trip over there own feet yet others seem to walk on water just fine. And speaking of water, honestly I can’t even drink a glass of the stuff without spilling a few (hundred) drops onto my chest. Yeah, what am I like a toddler or something?! Every damn time too you know. Good luck with the eyes, here’s to hoping for a speedy recovery into new vision!


  • Euge Etcheverry

    I can’t wait to have my eye surgery! I wear glasses since the age of 8 and contact lenses since I was 14. I seriously can’t wait.

    You look gorgeous! I love the skirt. Great style!

    Obsessed Fashion Blog

  • Well the good news is you can see well enough to write this post, unless you did it blind…!? Seriously though, that’s pretty bad about the operation but hopefully those sunglasses and brown-ring-dropping-into-eye permitting, you’ll be on the mend in no time. Though, you do sound clumbsy, not that there’s anything wrong with that, unless you’re risking your own safety? I’m a bit careless sometimes, I once cut my arm open with an ice cream scooper, massive scar to prove it.

    Buckets & Spades

  • As some one who has always worn glasses, I know that feeling of needing to reach out for my glasses before doing anything else first thing in the morning. I can no longer imagine life without them. Although I would love to not have to wear them! I am glad the procedure went so well for you. I know very many people for whom it did not go so well and that worries me to get it done for myself, so it is nice to hear of it going well for someone!

  • This post actually made me “lol”! I’m way too scared to do any kind of eye surgery!! Get well soon, though! You are also so pretty and your photos are AMAZING. I wish I looked half as stellar on camera xx

  • This post got me chuckling! First of all, wow, eye surgery is not something to mess around with so I do wish you speedy recovery. And you’re not the only one who is a klutz! I lost count how many times I tripped on myself while walking in a pair of sneakers, can you believe that? My husband thinks it’s funny but I want to box his ear whenever he laughs at me. LOL!

    Shireen | Reflection of Sanity

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  • Takko

    Der Pelzmantel in Leopardenmuster ist echt der Hammer!

  • First of all you look absolutely gorgeous <3 Secondly if I could bottle clumsiness in one huge bottle and keep it there for the rest of eternity I would do it in a heart beat haha~ Hope you are recovering well, love

    She Will Be

  • You’re a trooper! Sorry that you had to have surgery but congrats for getting through it and having good eyesight now! I’ll probably need that one of these days! P.s. New girl is the best ever.

    Chow Down USA

  • Rest your eyes and I hope they heal quickly. Love the look! Edgy and cool as always.

    Erin | Erin and Katherine Talk Beauty

  • Congratulations on your eye surgery, it must be wonderful being able to properly see out of both eyes! I cringed massively for you when reading the plastic bit came off and hit your lenses whilst putting in eye drops, that’s so unfortunate but I’m glad it didn’t have any lasting effect on your healing process! :)

    Gabrielle | A Glass Of Ice


  • Your blog has got to be one of the most visually appealing ones out there. Love your features too, are you part Japanese? (I’m not sure, it doesn’t say in your About page). Lovely blog and lovely images. Proud to be a new follower on Bloglovin!

  • Such a fun look! Love the skirt!

  • You look amazing! I cannot stop thinking about how beautfiul you are. It’s okay to be clumsy, I’ve been like Jess from New Girl and tripped while standing…Not my best moment, haha

    By the way, love your blog! Definitely a new follower on bloglovin <3

    xx Bash | Bash Says Hey | bloglovin’

  • You look so cool. :)

  • This post cracked me up. I can totally relate to it on so many levels.

    First, my dad had that exact same surgery last year. He now has weird square shaped lenses in his eyes, and we realized that they actually glow in the dark. Freaky, right?

    Also, I have tripped up the stairs numerous times… sober. It’s definitely possible to do. In fact, I feel like I trip up the stairs more than I do down them!

  • thelittlebrunette

    I’ve fallen in love with your blog!

    Alexis @

  • Beautiful outfit, love the skirt!

  • Absolutely beautiful outfit! I hope that your luck changes, and that your eye is okay <3 Sometimes, it seems that we just have "those" days. where everything is a "seriously?" moment! Great post, I'm really loving your blog!

    Becky, xx //

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  • sano sanisimo

    absolutely lovely, I really love your look, your skirt is really cute and also your shoes!!! I´m sure your luck will change, I´m clumsy too and understand how you feel!
    Have a nice day!!
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  • Kirsty Haynes

    Such a cute outfit, it really suits you!

    But, uh! Your hair is lovely! <3

  • I hope the healing process goes smoothly! I absolutely hate having to wear corrective lenses–I bet it’s a surreal experience to be able to see well without them! I really love your unique style, too!

  • Sam

    You are absolutely stunning y’know? This outfit is really cute and it suits you so much :) xx

    Sam | Samantha Betteridge

  • you are so cute! surely your luck will change one day. And I’m jealous that you can see without glasses/contacts now! It would be so nice to run without glasses. Maybe one day!

  • Stunning look, love it.

  • Cool outfit, I LOVE the aninal print coat with the plaid skirt. Your hair is stunning.
    Take care with your eyes :-)

  • cla (NABW)

    Wow you’re soo pretty and this outfit is perfect, i’m in love this skirt and this fur coat ! :) xoxo

  • lady .nancy

    Such a great outfit! xx


  • I keep thinking about lasik (and alternatives) and it’s always so scary! Thank you for posting your thoughts – most reviews I read are “great! glad to see perfectly now!” So thanks for the refreshing review. And great outfit – I love the plaid skirt. The peplum is adorable!