Anatomy of this Outfit: Top – librastyle tees | Sweater – weekday | Tights – H&M Boots – thrifted

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Last weekend, my tripod was stolen. Well, passively stolen. But stolen none the less. I was coming back from a portrait session for a client and waiting for the U-Bahn, when I absentmindedly left my tripod on a public bench and got onto the U-Bahn only to realize a few seconds later after taking a seat that my tripod was nowhere in sight.

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How could something like this have happened? Well as I was leaving the shoot and walking towards the U-Bahn station, I stopped to take a look at a curious selection of books resting on a singular office chair. This is a pretty typical occurrence here in Berlin – instead of throwing away your old bits and bobs, you simply box them, and put them on the street with a note reading: “Zu Verschenken” – to give away. One book had struck my interest in particular. In fact, I glanced over the books, took 3 steps away telling myself that I didn’t really need anything and then promptly turned around and snatched the book up, because it sounded too damned good to pass up.

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Once in the station, I thought that it would be smart to leave my hands free and pack my new book inside my backpack. I unslung my tripod bag (with tripod inside) from my shoulder, set it down, and proceeded to pack the book inside my bag. And what would you know? The train came, I got on, and my tripod was sitting there all by it’s lonely self wondering why I had left it there and why it was no longer needed. Okay, so it probably didn’t wonder all of these things, mainly due to the fact that it’s not a sentient being, but I that’s how I imagine the situation to have been like, were my tripod to be a person.

I promptly got off at the next stop and waited the agonising 4 minutes for the train in the other direction, hopped off the train, dashed up the stairs, and over to the other platform all the while trying to think positively as if some bullshit like “The Secret” actually did make logical sense and if I would just will it to still bet there it would be. No such luck of course.

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The craziest thing though, was that just under an hour later, I literally saw my tripod, now unpacked, being carried away by a homeless man running through another station on the same train line as the station where I had initially forgotten it. I stood there incredulously, my mouth hanging open for a good few seconds, not sure whether the man that I saw had coincidentally been running with a tripod and no other camera equipment or bags in sight or if the tripod he was holding was indeed mine.

I kind of wavered between confronting him and not doing anything, fearing that if he was just a man with his own tripod, I would come across as accusatory and just a little bit crazy, and tackling the mother fucker and beating senseless him with my tripod (ok not really). I ran after him, and up the steps to the above station tracks, only he was no where in sight, already having disappeared back down another set of stairs.

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At first I was super pissed, as is evidenced by the angry facebook post I promptly uploaded to Facebook that went something like this: To the dickbag who stole my €60 tripod, fuck you very much. But then I was more sad than anything. I’m not excusing the man who stole my tripod’s behavior entirely, and 60 euros is a lot of money for me these days, but it got me thinking that this man could have fallen through the cracks of the social system and that if he was receiving the help he clearly needed, he might not have to resort to stealing. And if he was not stealing for the money, he might have been doing it because he wasn’t completely coherent due to alcohol, drugs, or a mental disorder.

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To be honest, although I can say with certainty that the social system in Germany is decades ahead of any social system set in place in the US, I am still not extremely well versed on the specifics. And although Germans say that those who need help can get it in this country, and thus are responsible for their own lives, this is not the case if you are a drug addict. I am also sure that there are many other cases of people, eligible or not who are being failed by the system. While I am less than thrilled about having to shell out another 60 euros for a tripod (69,90 to be exact, actually), I am happy that I have a roof over my head and food in my belly. Even if it might consist of 20% ramen noodles for a bit while I save up some money for travel and the loss of my dearly departed tripod.

Photography: Johannes Husen

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Rae Tilly

Rae the EIC of LFB and YEOJA Magazine. She is also a photographer and social media influencer.


  • I really like your outfit, sorry to hear that your tripod was stolen.

    • rae

      Thanks Shari-Ann!

  • First of all, I love your look–I love how well you can pull off all black, especially with that hair! *swoon!*
    Also, I think this is a really nice post, and I love how you captured your emotionals throughout the process of your stolen tripod (which, sorry that that happened :/) I agree–it’s easy to be quickly upset and jump to conclusions, but at the end of the day, you really don’t know their situation, or how much agency the thief had (maybe on drugs, like you say).
    Regardless, rad photos c:

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    • rae

      Thank you so much, Hoda for your sweet comment and yes, we never do know the situations of the strangers around us, which is why we should treat everyone with respect and kindness :)

  • You have really unique style. Love your outfit from head to toe!

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    • rae

      Thanks so much!

  • Ah too bad about the tripod. 60 euros is a lot of money but you’re right, I guess things could be worse financially.

    • rae

      It’s all about perspective, I think!

  • I just adore the oversized cardigan! I love anything however that you can slouch around in. I may own one too many oversized jumpers. Wonderful photos lovely! x

    • rae

      Thanks! I love oversized things too. They are the cosiest in winter!

  • aww, it’s such a shame to lose something (or have it stolen), especially when you obviously use it all the time, but it’s a nice thought that even though it’s gone at least you can appreciate the things you do still have. imagine if you’d left your camera bag behind instead of just your tripod?!

    jessica –

    • rae

      Oh my god, if I had left my camera bag instead, I probably would have really lost it! haha.

  • You’re beautiful and I love your hair.

    I think that there can be lots of stigma surrounding those who live on the periphery of life, the drug addicts and the homeless, I suppose in a way it’s hopeful to think that maybe from the sale of your tripod he got a meal out of it, or a place to stay for the evening. I think sometimes as a society we can fail those that are most vulnerable and that is so sad.

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    • rae

      Thanks so much, Erin! And I agree, as a society it is really our job to help everyone and unfortunately that just isn’t happening, especially not in big cities.

  • What a wild story! But on the bright side love this look!



    • rae

      Glad that you liked it, Michaela!

  • Beautiful look—love your eyebrows!

    I love how you turned this into an outward reflection on the state of social system in Germany. I would also love to hear more about how they’re more progressive than the US in terms of social services for the homeless. Recently, I read an article about how some city somewhere in the US closed its parks so that the homeless couldn’t rest there, etc.

  • I would’ve been furious!! Mad at myself for leaving it but even more mad that I SAW the person that took it. Don’t forget to look on sites like Amazon and Keh. com, they might have the same tripod for cheaper!

    • rae

      Exactly – I mean I was upset it was stolen, but then again, I was a bit absentminded with the thing in the first place! And thanks for the tip! I might just do that! :)

  • Danielle

    Loved your outfit (:
    And I must say I adore your hair color and style.

    • rae

      Thanks so much, Danielle.

  • Oh no Rae – that’s an absolute bummer. I’m so sorry that happened. I never want to say that I’m hard up financially, but I’m definitely not swimming in money and I know how much of a difference that amount of money can make.

    Cheers to you for doing your best to remain objective though and go about it in a positive way. You’ve got great things coming your way – I can just tell.

    x Kathryn
    Through the Thicket

    • rae

      Yeah it was pretty disheartening, but these things happen sometimes! Will be saving up for a new tripod now, haha. And that is honestly so kind of you to say. Thank you!

  • Dolce

    I really enjoyed this post! Although I am sorry that you lost your poor tripod, your outlook on the whole thing is wonderful :) The stunning photos don’t hurt, either! Thanks for sharing :)

    xo, Dolce
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    • rae

      thanks so much Dolce!

  • Ananya N

    Love ur outfit You Look FAB

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    • rae

      Thanks Ananya, and I am sorry I do not do follow for follow. I only want you to follow my blog if you really enjoy the content here :)

  • I loove it! But yeah I’d be super pissed if that had happened. I did this once with an ipod. I dropped it when I was sat in a park by a tree, came back for it later and it was nowhere in sight. Though I still have no idea where it went. I have a habit of dropping and leaving things places though.

    60 euros isn’t a ridiculous amount of money but you still don’t want to be throwing it away so I get what you mean. Loove this look though <3

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    • rae

      Oh no! Yes I am sure someone snatched up that ipod right away. Unfortunately not everyone is honest. One time I was on a trip to Korea and one of the guests on the trip left his wallet in Seoul. We were all certain it would be gone but when we returned to the city 5 days later, it had been returned to the hotel. This also happened to me in Munich. I dropped my cellphone unknowingly and some Korean tourists turned it into the hostel they were staying at and the woman working there called the last number dialed and reached a friend of mine so I was able to get it back. Such things give me hope :)

  • gees what a story. but yes i was thinking the same as we were going through the story, at least you’re not in a postion to have to steal something to get by – even though it’s incredibly frustration. Wonder who has it now? Other than that, wicked images, your hair is fab.

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    • rae

      I have no idea where that tripod is or who has it … by now I am sure it’s been sold haha. And thanks!

  • Interesting look on the situation and interesting to see how when we stop and think after our initial emotions pass we can have a completely different outlook on what happened. By the way, the outfit is awesome. I love the edgy-ness and you definitely rock it! xo

    Marah |

    • rae

      Thanks so much, Marah!

  • Stephanie Eva

    What a crazy story about your tripod. It’s unfortunate to leave it, but those kinds of things happen to all of us. Your photos are great! Your hair is also beautiful! Love the colors!!

    Much Love,
    -Stephanie Eva

    • rae

      I am sure we all have stories like this! And thanks so much, my friend Johannes took the photos. Check his work out here!:

      • Stephanie Eva

        Awesome! Thanks for the link, I’ll stop by!

        Much Love,
        -Stephanie Eva

  • I could not agree more about U.S.’s social system, I actually have a friend in Monchengladbach and we were actually just discussing how homeless people are treated so differently here compared to Germany. A shitty thing that happened to you nonetheless, but your perspective on the situation is admirable.

    • rae

      I wouldn’t say that the public’s perspective on the homeless is any better, and in some cases, it’s even worse, because many people assume with such a “failsafe” system, the people that you do see on the streets are responsible for their own misfortune and could do otherwise if they choose to – as if it’s their choice to be out there in the cold – but in general the system that is in place is a lot more forgiving than the scant ones we have set up in the US. And thanks, initially I was super pissed off, haha, but it’s always good to put things into perspective!

  • you’re beautiful! i love your unique style ~

    • rae

      Thanks so much, Sydni!

  • Hickman Martin

    Ah the Wonder Woman approach would have been awesome! Bam! Pow! Bonk! But not with the precious tripod, maybe a trash can :) These pictures are amazing, dear. I love love tights especially on such amazing legs. Very sexy shots, just wow wow wow!!! Enjoyed very much :)

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    • rae

      Thank you so much, so glad you liked the look!