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Do you know that feeling, when you listen to a song for the first time, and it just sort of connects with you? It’s definitely not every song, but when it happens, you know it. It’s the kind of song that when you listen to it for the first time, you get halfway through and already think to yourself, well damn, it’s gonna be a drag when I eventually get sick of it. When it eventually looses that hold on me. And either you do exactly that – play the bastard to death until that feeling you had when you first listened to it disappears completely – or you ration it out, listen to crappier songs in the meantime or maybe even get lucky and find a bunch of other new songs you connect with and also have that “new song feeling”, make a playlist out of the whole damn thing, and if you’re lucky, all the songs flow in and out of each other perfectly.

I kind of think that is how life works in general. We are always sort of chasing that fresh feeling of starting something for the first time, knowing we are loving every minute of it, not exactly knowing how it will end, and dreading the moment it looses it’s magic. Becomes too predicable, becomes post-new song feeling. It’s why the start of a relationship is so intoxicating. Or how moving to a new city is so enticing. Or how starting a new job makes us actually want to get out of bed in the morning.

Unexpected endings are always hard, but that post-new song feeling is so much worse. Cos you’re still going through the motions. So what do you do? Fuck off to the next big thing, wait it out, accept it? Honestly, I’m not sure. I’m not sure about a lot of things. Does everything new eventually become old? Is it impossible to constantly maintain that level of new song feeling? Or when you really find something that is right and meant for you, is it always new? Or do you constantly have to re-discover why you love something – your job, your friends, your husband? Maybe that is how life is supposed to work. Maybe things are meant to get old and familiar. Maybe we are meant to actively re-discover why something ever had that new song feeling.

Because I do know that there is also this old new song feeling. When you rediscover a song years later that once made you close your eyes real tight for more than just a blinking second and touched your soul. It has the power to call it up all over again. It’s not the same as feeling it all for the first time, but calls up the memory of that initial feeling, and in doing so, makes you stumble backwards into it all over again. And that great feeling just comes flooding back.

So in honor of chasing that new song feeling, here 30 of mine.

1: Billy Bragg – A New England
2: Pixies – La La Love you
3: Pixies – Hey
4: Warpaint – Love Is to Die
5: Rogue Wave – Chicago x 12
6: Mother Mother – Ghosting
7: Wolf Parade – Modern World
8: The Six Parts Seven – Sleeping Diagonally
8: Great Lake Swimmers – Moving Pictures Silent Films
10: Sun Kil Moon – Carry Me Ohio
11: Modest Mouse – Little Motel
12: Do Make Say Think – A Tender History in Rust
13: Page France – Junkyard
14: Margot & the Nuclear So And So’s – Skeleton Key
15: Cranes – Driving In The sun
16: Gregory and the Hawk – Oats We Sow
17: Gregory and the Hawk – Doubtful
18: Soko – First Love Never Die
19: Foo Fighters – Everlong
20: The Radio Dept – I Wanted You To Feel The Same
21: The Radio Dept – I don’t Need Love I’ve Got My Band
22: New Order – Ceremony
23: Aphex Twin – Avril 14th
24: Bon Iver – Blood Bank
25: Bon Iver – Holocene
26: Sebadoh – On Fire
27: The Postal Service – Grow Old With Me
28: Death Cab for Cutie – Marching Bands of Manhattan
29: Stars – Wasted Daylight
30: Rogue Wave – Salesman At The Day Of The Parade

Photography: Dean


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Rae the EIC of LFB and YEOJA Magazine. She is also a photographer and social media influencer.

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  • This post speaks to me so much! Firstly yeah, whenever I hear a new song I like I do the exact same thing as you. I’m always chasing the new song feeling in life as well, I think I’ve really forgotten how to enjoy what I have.

    • rae

      i am glad you know exactly what I am talking about! And I think it is always a good reminder to remember how lucky we are to have the things do we have.

  • she

    I haven listened to Gregory and The Hawk in ages, I love this playlist tanks for sharing it.

    • rae

      No problem, glad you enjoyed it!

  • Beautiful, love the print on that top. I love it when music hits like that, I love a lot of the songs on your playlist and may have to listen to the rest, I need some new lyrics for post titles <3

    The Quirky Queer

  • Stephanie Louise

    Those certain songs that you fall madly in love with drive me crazy, but I love them! You can’t help but listen to them over and over. Beautiful words Rae, it’s all true and meaningful to everyone I bet. We all may try to hold on to that little piece of the new, but it’s okay to let go and embrace what is to come, and work towards it being better. x

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